Hit Pause
Do you bargain with God? I find myself doing this when shopping, even at Dollar General. "Lord, if you approve of this purchase have it be under $10." Then I look at the tag. 🤣
Well, I've been doing that with posting these devotionals. The morning I was writing this I had just tossed and turned a lot during the night attempting to justify an exit plan or at least hit the pause button on Boojoyful through the holidays.
When I was honest about why I wanted to quit, the reasons were all about me. Fear of what others think was at the top of the list and a concern of being tracked was another. In 26 years of writing I'd never thought about who was reading, with the exception of close friends who email or text about something I've said. I didn't even know you could see where your readers were from and when I saw the chart listing the USA in 4th place of where the Boojoyful readers are located that made me leery.
With my exit speech laid out I went online about 3AM, but first presented God with my bargain. "Father, if I go to "stats" and more than 200 people have already read Boojoyful today I will continue, otherwise I'll take it as a sign I can quit." I kid you NOT, the number was 201. God does have a sense of humor.
I was about to pull an Abraham and change the number
What if there are fifty righteous people in the city? Will you really sweep it away and not spare the place for the sake of the fifty righteous people in it? Genesis 18:24.
Then Abraham's bargaining begins...40 30, 20, 10. Read Genesis 18:20-19:29 to see the bargaining results.
If someone gave their life for you, took the penalty and went to prison for a crime you committed, put your needs before theirs, loved and cared for you with a depth that's incomprehensible, wouldn't you wake up everyday grateful?
Guess, until the Lord shows me another way, I'll keep on keeping on with this weekday accountability tool as a way to simply say, "Thank You, Jesus."
The Song (Added to my conviction.)
"To Not Worship"- Mercy Me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIFpkpHSjWA
